About

Halo! My name is ZAN.

I worked overseas for more than 3 years, sole proprietor, jitney operator, and online seller to present.

Travelling the world was not my dream. My ambition is to be a CPA lawyer someday.

When I was in college, travelling was been my agenda but I don’t know how and when to start? “In My dreams …. “

I focused on Study. Graduate. Work. As a working student at the University that I am studying, I finished Bachelor of Science in Commerce major in Management.

I save money and take up vocational course and landed as a caregiver. Get an experience and applied to different care home agencies and mental disability learning centers in the Philippines.

I applied abroad for student visa (working student) luckily it was approved within 3 months. I can say that I’m blessed with the short period of visa application approval. I worked as a health care provider to one of the biggest care homes in UK. Earn money for myself and start travelling from different places in Europe.

I’ve been transferring from place to place. Life abroad for me was fun especially that it’s my first time living alone in a foreign land but sometimes feel homesickness. You miss your family, friends, food, moments and memories in your home country.The worst thing is when you are sick nobody will comfort you but your own self not unlike in your home country you have family to take good care of you.You have have friends visiting in your house.

Years past, I went back home. I started a small business, karaoke bar – 9 years in operation to present(now managed by my older sister). Then moved to Visayas region as a jeepney operator, and online seller (selling ready to wear garments like bags, shoes,men and womens clothing). My business going smoothly and life has been good to me.

Over the past few years, I am experiencing pressure because of ups and down in business,overthinking on how to manage and other setbacks.

I realized that I need to slow down to have more time for myself. I felt depressed and not happy. For everything I have, good business and having a good life( I am not rich but earning enough to experience a good life) but still not satisfied. There’s something that I want to do for myself. Sometimes I talk to myself in front of the mirror that I am ok but in reality I am not OK. We cannot deny the fact that all of us feel depressed sometimes because of stressful surroundings and you just try to fight negative emotions.

I try to focused on good things. I started reading encouraging books, positive and motivational quotes, exercise, listen to relaxing music and calling family/friends.

Taking the first step is always the hardest in dealing and coping with depression. I try to dare myself to be strong. Do things that make me feel good, I follow tips to energize and relax myself just like following healthy lifestyle, learning on how to better manage stress, setting limits and doing fun activities.

BLOGGING

I thought blogging is so easy to do so i try to make one.But when i started to write ,its like wooooooohhhh…!I don’t know how to begin.What will i gonna write? I don’t know how to start my thoughts and I don’t have any idea on how to start my blog. It’s my first time to do this thing and realized that it is harder than I thought.

Still in general community quarantine due to COVID-19. I just want to make myself busy and to boost my mood in a positive way. Diverting my attention to other things and discover what else can I do to be productive while staying at home.

It makes my mind work and distract my negative thoughts into good ones. It makes me relieve the pressure on what’s happening now. I think it’s not yet too late to find my purpose and provide a feeling of self-fulfillment.

I strongly believe that everyone should be able to live their lives in a way that allows to have a sense of meaning. I embrace a variety of skills and experiences and open to learning new things, so I decided to try this blogging and do this as my personal diary.

Due to pandemic, it inspires me to make my own blog where I can express my thoughts and feelings effectively into words.

I hope that through this blogging I can be able to express my emotions and know how to treat it well. I have an emotional and mental anxiety that leads to stressed and depression so I am trying to do things and behave in a way to avoid that anxiety.

When I start writing, it really helps me to get through in this difficult times in my life.

Dare to be there is about challenging oneself to make no limits on what you can do for yourself and it’s never too late to do what you want in life.

Chase your dreams, make a new life, new journey, new moments/memories to share, have fun and meet new people. I am already 37 years old and my goal is to dare myself to do the things I never did in my life.

Enjoy every moments of my life. Make memories to share to our friends/relatives, family and to others.

Discover and explore new things and places. Learn and appreciate everything that will improve myself as a human being.

Don’t just imagine, make it in reality.

All of us have worries that we are not smart enough, knowledgeable enough, tough enough, don’t have enough money and other reasons we have. We need to dare ourselves that we can do it , rather than buried in regret. Make your dreams in reality.

I experienced different kinds of setbacks in my life and I know that life is too short so make the most of it. At my age, I dare myself to be more tougher, conquer all my fears and begin to face aggressively those roadblocks in life.